chris

It’s one of those days that I just feel really down.

It might be because I lost terribly in the competition today, because I’m still depressed about many things in school, because I’m disappointed with myself, because I got a parking fine that was absolutely unnecessary, because I couldn’t get a haircut by the hairstylist I wanted (he’s on leave till 2 weeks later).

There are so many reasons to be down. But the nightmare that I had while I was napping told me something. “Don’t become psycho.” Just don’t.

The last few days I haven’t been acting like myself. I don’t approach friends for company just because I tell myself it won’t matter with or without their company anyway. I do stuff like go out to eat alone, walk around alone. Stuff that I usually don’t do. There are still friends around. Sometimes they just have their own stuff to do. I have to appreciate the people around me more, whether they’re really close friends or not, they really make a difference in my life. After all, I picked them up slowly (and maybe randomly) in different times of my life. So why tell myself I’m alone when I’m not?

Why turn psycho, Chris?

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